Mommy + Baby = 1

Hi Baby!!

I can’t believe that we are finally together! This feels so surreal… I’m still overtaken by a mix of feelings because it’s really early and I don’t feel you yet… I’m in love and scared, anxious and happy, nervous and looking forward to going through each stage with you.

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Exercising Patience


Rainbow07Patience Being one of the most impatient people I know and under the assumption that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, I would like to register this message from Osho, to one day share with my children.

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What advice would I give to lil ol’ me?

imagesAdvice I wish I had been given when I was younger and that I will share with my soon to be daughter(s) and/or son(s):

I would say, try not to be so hard on yourself because whatever you’re stressing about most likely doesn’t even matter so don’t sweat the small stuff.

If what makes you cry doesn’t affect your life 10 years from now, it’s not worth it crying about.
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You Were Conceived In My Heart

IVFHi my loves,

My heart is a little torn… although I feel that much closer to having you and I’m really happy about that, I’m also torn with the fact that I won’t be able to have all the babies that will be “formed” a couple weeks from now. I want you to know that if I could, I would have all of you grow in my belly.

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2014-05-27 16_15_15-ivf love - Google SearchHi my loves,

It feels like the day I’ll hold you is so far and yet so close at the same time… I’m not sure why this is all happening and we aren’t able to meet, you and us, but our life already revolves around you and you’re in our minds every day.

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Mother’s Day Lessons

images (1)Hi Kids,

Mother’s day just passed and although it’s a painful time for me because I don’t yet know when we’ll have you in our lives, I would like to take this opportunity to put some things out there and write some notes to you and to me.

I know that when I meet you I’ll be completely over taken and filled by immense love, and that nothing will ever be more important than you in our lives. My biggest aspiration is to be a good example for you, as a person and as a parent.  I hope that my love for you doesn’t blind me and that I never put my own insecurities above your needs and best interest.

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Bubbles on Steroids – Popping Fun

Empty Arms, But Filled With Love

I love youHi Babies,

Can’t stop thinking about you…I’m very hopeful that this will be the month that you and I finally get together, as one, as mother and child.

I love you so much already even though I haven’t met you… we haven’t even made you yet. But I want you to know, I want to tell you this someday, that I’m fighting with all my strength to be able to hold you in my arms, to have you in our lives. Since our decision that it was time to bring you into the world and to have you in our family, my whole life has been dedicated to making that happen.

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Envisioning My Kids

images (7)I would like to have 4 girls, 2 biological and 2 adopted. I think my husband is only down to the first half of this plan..

I don’t have any boys names on my list… just could never think of any boy names I like and that would work both in English and Portuguese… could use some suggestions actually… but for girls I like Seisha, India, Kenzie, Shiva, Luna and Leah…. but probably can’t use Leah considering that’s one of baby daddy’s ex’s name. :/

I hope you’ll have your dad’s hazel eyes, strong teeth and great (although balding) hair. From mom you’ll inherit slender body, beautiful nose, and pro-activity. Dad, like many other dads, is not the best at getting stuff done so let’s leave him out of this one.  Read the rest of this entry

Coming Out of the Infertility Closet


I wrote this post on my LOVEcomaDANI blog…. but wanted to share it with you all as well… hopefully it inspires you too.

Originally posted on LOVEcomaDANI:

My Infertility Closet Everyone has secrets, things we find hard to talk about. We all have closets…and they are scary and we hate it. Closets are just a hard conversation. This is a story of how coming out of the infertility closet has set me free.

Some closets might contain lighter secrets than others but make no mistake, all closets are hard to come out of. At first closets feel safe. They provide a world where your insecurities can pass by unscathed and unacknowledged by others. It may feel like keeping your closet door shut you’re safeguarding your heart, but in reality you’re cultivating a time bomb.

For months I endured silent depression and deep sadness, all alone. My husband was is denial that there was any problem at all with us and just kept repeating we should keep trying and one day it would happen naturally. Friends also ask when we were gonna have…

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