You are finally here and I still cant believe it. It seems as surreal to wake up next to you every day as it was when I first saw you coming out of me just 5 days ago.
My mind keeps spinning at how little and innocent you are… and that you’re mine, a piece of me (even though you really look like your dad). Nowadays I spend the majority of my time just staring into your eyes, waiting for you for eyes to find mine. And when they do it’s an emotion I cant describe… it just feels like we’re meant for each other. We belong together. Your eyes fixate on mine and mine in yours and we just stare, getting to know one another.
Today you actually smiled at me. It was so incredible! We had been looking at each other for a while and I sent you a kiss and you just gave me the biggest smile. I’m never gonna forget this moment. Im so in love with you.
I know time will fly by and all of a sudden it’ll be you holding your baby with me looking over your shoulder thinking about this very moment I’m living through today. I never want to forget any if it. I know you want remember any of this but I’ll cherish these moments forever.
I look forward to all the moments we’ll spend together.
Welcome to the world my little one!
I love you so much,
I’m sitting in my desk, at work, during my lunch… I’m making a playlist of songs I’d like to play for you on your birth day. As I go through the songs and listen to the lyrics, I’m so filled with love and emotion… I sit here crying, touching my belly, feeling you kick, and I can’t wait to meet you my baby. Read the rest of this entry
You have finally started gracing with some kung fu movements! We’re half way there baby, just keep on the kicking so I know you’re doing good. You always put a smile on my face when you kick me… You might as well do it now because if you pull one of these kung fu moves when you’re out you might just get some whoopings! :P I’m sure you’ll be a good boy! Read the rest of this entry
I think I’ll share this with you when you’re a teenager…but as I’m writing this post, you’re still in my belly and you’re a tiny 17 weeks old. I’m writing these posts so that I remember things I wanna share with you but also so that I don’t forget who I was and the kind of mom I want to be as you grow. Read the rest of this entry
You don’t have a name yet but we found out a few days ago that you’re a boy! We are so happy to have you join us in a few months! Cant wait to kiss you and hold you!
You are 16 weeks and 6 days old today and I think you can hear us already! We’re gonna try to keep the cussing down! LOL It’s a learning experience for all 3 of us. I felt you move a couple times last week, but it was so quick. Please kick me as much as you like, I’m looking forward to it. But be reminded that this “free pass” is only good until May! Read the rest of this entry
I’ve longed for this moment for so long… the day that I would finally have you growing in my belly… when that day finally came I was so excited! But it was so hard to accept reality… I felt like something was over my head and it was a matter of time before the rug was pulled from under my feet.
Then one day I started bleeding. It was terrifying. The doctor said it was a natural thing but that I should stay in bed rest until the bleeding stopped for 7 days in a row. I was divided between my hopeful dreams of you and the cruel reality in front of me.
Time never passed so slowly.
1. You made her cry… a lot. She cried when she found out she was pregnant. She cried as she gave birth to you. She cried when she first held you. She cried with happiness. She cried with fear. She cried with worry. She cried because she feels so deeply for you. She felt your pain and your happiness and she shared it with you, whether you realized it or not.
2. She wanted that last piece of pie. But when she saw you look at it with those big eyes and lick your mouth with that tiny tongue, she couldn’t eat it. She knew it would make her much happier to see your little tummy be filled than hers.
I can’t believe that we are finally together! This feels so surreal… I’m still overtaken by a mix of feelings because it’s really early and I don’t feel you yet… I’m in love and scared, anxious and happy, nervous and looking forward to going through each stage with you.
Being one of the most impatient people I know and under the assumption that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, I would like to register this message from Osho, to one day share with my children.
I would say, try not to be so hard on yourself because whatever you’re stressing about most likely doesn’t even matter so don’t sweat the small stuff.
If what makes you cry doesn’t affect your life 10 years from now, it’s not worth it crying about.
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