It feels like the day I’ll hold you is so far and yet so close at the same time… I’m not sure why this is all happening and we aren’t able to meet, you and us, but our life already revolves around you and you’re in our minds every day.
This month is not bringing us any closer to being with you but we are still very hopeful that the day is near. Next week we’ll be seeing a doctor that will give us a little push towards you… or the other way around… I’m pretty sure he’ll be pushing you closer to us actually.
It won’t be easy and your dad and I are going through a lot of physical, emotional and financial struggles to be with you. You are not allowed to ever say we are obsessed with you. LOL (If LOL has fallen out of popularity by the time you read this, it means laughing out loud)
Kids think their parents are heroes and are invincible. I get beat down from time to time and do I do get emotional. But what I want you to take from this is that we started loving you the very moment we decided to have you and all this time only made our love grow. I want to know that giving up is never an option when you really want something. You battle through pain and tears but you get what you want.
I want you know that I’m no hero… I’m human and I have problems, and so will you. I’m insecure, I cry, I make mistakes and I’m definitely not right all the time like your dad likes to believe. Parents like to think they have so much to teach their kids but I know I’ll have so much to learn from you too and I can’t wait for our lessons to begin.